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Does suffering has a value?
To get this out of the way: I happen to be a God-believer. I am neither agnostic (whatever that’s supposed to be (whatever that is) or an atheist. I truly believe there is a God out there, and I believe … Continue reading
Up to HERE
I’ll point in the direction so you know precisely where HERE is. It’s what James Baldwin once called “a region of my mind.” I had an appointment scheduled for tomorrow to go to the pain management center in Pittsfield, MA. … Continue reading
Lasciate ogni speranza, voi ch’entrate
I’m tired of screaming about my pain. I’m tired of screaming and you’re surely tired of hearing about it or reading it. But that’s what I do. Why do you think I started a blog about life inside chronic pain, … Continue reading
Low points on the feast of freedom
Last night I went to the 2nd Seder of Passover (that’s Pesach to the initiated).It could have been the worst night I’ve spent anywhere in ages. It was so depressing that even the food did very little for me–oh, yes, … Continue reading
Banish Misfortune
I’m becoming self-protective…or selfish. Well, I’ve always been selfish, but learning how to actively protect myself is another story entirely. I have gathered unto myself a rather significant collection of movies, TV series, opera broadcasts, even jazz. It enables me … Continue reading
Wheelchair
I suppose this is (for me) the Grand Surrender (not quite, but close). I have an increasingly nasty degree of “limited mobility.” It hurts to even walk…anywhere. I hate to call myself a “cripple,” that seems to be on the … Continue reading
Fun (of a sort) With Insomnia
I’m kidding. It’s not really fun at all. But some people use it with great creative effect. For me, sleepless nights can be a sign of my manic side popping up to say Hello, Sucker, I’m back. Remember: I’m bipolar. … Continue reading
Wonders never cease
June 15, 2015 The last entry marked the change to how remarkably different I feel. This entry is short and simply reinforces what’s been happening to me. It’s truly a mystic transformation, the gift of medical science and therapeutic practice. … Continue reading
And then a miracle occurs….
The other day I had another series of epidural injections into the vertebral areas around my spine. I was heavily sedated. Oh hell, basically I was cold-cocked so the doctor could work on me. I was unconscious when he did the … Continue reading
After great pain can come more great pain
Emily Dickinson wrote some wonderful things. This, perhaps, is my favorite, one of her almost weightless poems that carries all the weight of the world. After great pain, a formal feeling comes – The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs – The … Continue reading
The Chronic Chronicles 